Just wanna share

Kali ini gue pengen nge-share lagu yang ada di pikiran gue. Dengan sedikit gubahan untuk menyesuaikan dengan masa2 yang gue anggap salah satu masa krisis dalam hidup gue #makinalay #makinlebay

Lagu pertama dari Justin Beiber. Sorry. Entah Sorry untuk siapa. Untuk kalian. Sorry...

 

I gotta go and get angry at all of this honesty
I know I try but I don't do too well with apologies
I hope I don't run out of time, can someone call a referee?
Cause I just need one more shot at forgiveness
I know you know that I made those mistakes maybe once or twice
By once or twice I mean maybe a couple of hundred times
So let me, oh let me redeem, oh redeem myself tonight
Cause I just need one more shot at second chances
Is it too late now to say sorry?
Cause I'm not missing more than just your memory
Is it too late now to say sorry?
Yeah I know that I let myself down
Is it too late to say that I'm sorry now?
I'm sorry, yeah
Sorry, yeah
Sorry
Yeah I know that I let you down
Is it too late to say sorry now?
I'll take every single piece of the blame if I want me to
But I know that there is no innocent one in this game for two
I'll go, I'll go and then you go, you go out and spill the truth
Can I say the words and forget this?

Lagu kedua. I don't love you dari Urban Zakapa...

 

museun mareul halkka
eodiseobuteo eotteohge
gogaeman tteolguneun na
geureon nal baraboneun neo
geu eosaekhan chimmuk

neol saranghaji anha

neodo algo issgessjiman

nunmul heullineun neoui moseubedo nae maeum

apeujiga anha

neol saranghaji anha
dareun iyuneun eopseo
mianhadaneun maldo
yongseohae dallan maldo
hago sipji anha
geunyang geuge jeonbuya
ige nae jinsimingeoya
neol saranghaji anha
neol saranghaji anha
neol saranghaji anha
neodo algo issgessjiman
nunmul heullineun neoui moseubedo nae maeum
apeujiga anha
neol saranghaji anha
dareun iyuneun eopseo
mianhadaneun maldo
yongseohae dallan maldo hago sipji anha
geunyang geuge jeonbuya
ije nae jinsimingeoya
neol saranghaji anha
neol saranghaji anha
neol saranghaji anha
dareun iyuneun eopseo
mianhadaneun maldo
yongseohae dallan maldo
hago sipji anha
geunyang geuge jeonbuya
ige nae jinsimingeoya
neol saranghaji anha
neol saranghaji anha

 

What should I say?
Where do I start?
I’m only hanging my head
You’re looking at me
In this awkward silence

I don’t love you
I’m sure you already know
Even when I see you shedding tears
My heart doesn’t ache anymore

I don’t love you
There’s no other reason
I don’t even want to say
I’m sorry or forgive me

That’s all
This is how I really feel
I don’t love you
I don’t love you

I don’t love you
I’m sure you already know
Even when I see you shedding tears
My heart doesn’t ache anymore

I don’t love you
There’s no other reason
I don’t even want to say
I’m sorry or forgive me

That’s all
This is how I really feel
I don’t love you
I don’t love you

I don’t love you
There’s no other reason
I don’t even want to say
I’m sorry or forgive me

That’s all
This is how I really feel
I don’t love you
I don’t love you

Liburan 2016 #3

Akhirnya sudi juga ngeblog lagi di Minggu yang lempeng kayak biasanya. Kalo diibaratkan idol, gue baru tiga kali comeback alias liburan semenjak kerja di Kalimantan. Dan entah mengepa liburan ke #3 ini tidak seperti liburan yang sebelum-sebelumnya. I still excited tapi losing Mbak Lis membuatnya berbeda. 

Adi Sucipto masih menyambut dengan gegap gempita. Apalagi menjelang Natal. Mata kita akan memastikan bahwa benar ini sudah liburan. Kepulangan gue untuk liburan masih lewat Jogja. Tapi, ketika balik ke Kalimantan gue udah mantab memilih lewat Adi Sumarmo. Bye Jogja Bye. Tiket elo sudah gak sesuai dengan misi nawacita gue. Dikit selisihnya sih, kalo via Jogja biasanya 700an, kalo lewat Solo 600-an. Tapi karena kalo lewat Solo relatif lebih dekat ya pilih Solo aja. 

Dan edannya, akhir2 ini gue sudah terhantui sama mudik! Aneh lah mimpi2 gue: ada yang gue tiba2 kaget kenapa sudah sampai rumah dan inget kalo masih harus ngajar 3 jam pelajaran di kelas IPA! Ada juga yang gue panik sampe tereak2 gak penting ketika menyadari ketinggalan pesawat! Ini bukan lagi cobaan atau ujian. Ini adalah konspirasi otak gue biar gue idup gak tenang di Satui. Otak gue minta asupan capcin dan juga pentol telor sepertinya!

Dongdaemun juseyo, Rusa-yaaa

Agenda pertama yang sudah menunggu adalah maen bareng Monsters. Saat itu waktu gue ditanya apa mau ke Magelang nengok mbak Lis, gue cuma bisa diem. Gue gak tau musti bereaksi apa. Gue pengen, gue mau tapi ada rasa belum siap. Sampai akhirnya kita ke Manding karena Afik pengen nyari sepatu. Dan khas kita banget, kita menghabiskan banyak bensin dan waktu di jalan karena gak tahu Manding itu mana!Dan mantabnya sampe sana gak dapet apapun!

Setelah lelah protes dalam hati kenapa ada dompet kulit bagus tapi dengan merk Kickers tertera gede banget, kita melanjutkan perjalanan ke Mak Semarangan. No mall at that moment. No singing also. And no Mbak Lis.

Manding Street drink: Es Krim Cincau yang sejatinya bukan es krim tapi santen beku!

Tempatnya oke juga

Everything change. Entah karena ada faktor ketidakadanya Mbak Lis atau gak, since past holiday i feel different. My heart change. I have no passion with them anymore. I have no affection anymore. I have no desire to ask or chat with them. Entah kenapa. Apakah karena aku merasa diabaikan mengenai pendapat soal kado pernikahan Beka? Tapi itu adalah masalah kecil! Sama sekali bukan hal yang patut menjadi penyebab perubahan itu!Sampai detik ini, gue masih bertanya2. Apa yang terjadi?? I keep on asking. Apakah karena gue merasa sudah gak saatnya membicarakan masalah makanan, kuliner, maen lagi? Tapi bukannya gue masih juga membicarakan mengenai kdrama? kpop? Masalah remeh temeh serpihan peyek gak penting? Apa salah mereka sebenarnya? Apa ada virus yang masuk ke hati dan otak gue yang ngebuat gue tiba2 jadi orang asing yang teralienasi. Merasa tidak ada koneksi dengan mereka. Orang2 yang selama 10 tahun ini gue merasa sangat bersemangat untuk menghabiskan waktu bersama? Sekarang, jangankan menghabiskan waktu bersama, untuk sekadar chat aja gue merasa hampa...

I miss the past day. When u with me, mbak Lis..I'll try my best to keep our line, mbak. I don't know how to get there, but i will...
 

Scedule yang gak boleh terlewatkan juga adalah meet the kids! Aira, Sifa, Hayu. I always enjoy time with kids. They're so adorable. Gue suka sekali ngrecoki bocah2 yang beli di warung ibuk. Semacam bandal chingu lokal. Haha. Dan Sifa, tu bocah udah beda. Gue antara merasa sakit hati dan juga aneh karena Sifa agak2 yang menolak gue. Ini juga karena gue sendiri sih. Gue kena virus lagi. *blame on virus*

Manhi mokgo Aira-ya, Faiz-ya

Dan akhirnya ketemu Saenah lagi juga!  Minus Laras karena abis melahirkan. Pertemanan ini unik. Gue merasa ada sedikit diskriminasi kalo menyangkut Laras. Semacam gak papa gak ada Laras asal ada yang lain! Iya, gue mempraktikkan bullying *Maafkan kami, Ras. Kapan hari kami akan mengunjungimu* Saenah tidak selalu chat, bahkan kami kadang gak selalu peduli satu sama lain. Kami gak selalu ada untuk satu sama lain. Tapi kami selalu berusaha ketemu ketika liburan. Entah persahabatan macam apa ini...

Kelompok mak2 sepreempat baya

Last scedule adalah sama Mbak Fina. Kami ke Amplaz. Makan di Seorae dan nyari sesuatu di Gramedia. Kami mau merasakan sensasi grill2an dalam aura harga yang mahal. Terakhir datang ke sana gue merasa cocok banget sama galbi-nya Seorae. Tapi kok pas sama Mbak Fina gue merasa daging sapinya cenderung mirip sate kere di rumah sih? Lemak semuaa! Heol!

Daaan, ngemol juga sama keluarga. Mampir doang sih. Cuma nyariin Pepero sama Samyang. Mau nyari gokujang tapi kok mengandung alkohol ya. Gue sudah mabuk dengan pergerakan Kyuhyun dan juga member Winner, gak perlu mabuk2an dengan gokujang. 

Swafoto di ban berjalan

Naah, kan. Gue merasa gak banget dengan update-an ini. Semacam sesuatu yang dipaksakan. Gak all out. Ya biar lah timbang gue numpuk ini semua di otak. Mending curhat di sini. 
Sekarang dan kelak. Entah gimana kondisinya. Gue pengen blog ini menjadi semacam terapi bagi gue. Gue yang gak suka dengan banyak drama tapi butuh k-drama. Gue yang gak suka ngobrol tapi kadang merasa kesepian kalo diem terus. Gue bikin blog untuk gue sendiri yang jelas menyiratkan keegoisan gue. Gue gak mau berbagi. Seems like i like alone but i hate being lonely. 

#HappyKyuhyunDay #Welcome29

Finally! Right at February, 2nd! Happy B'day the owner of my favorite's voice number one: Cho Kyuhyun! Still fangirling you, even the amount is a lil bit less. Yes, you can blame me. Mad at me but i still really really like you! Call that a part of me that still immature. Haha. 

Neomu neomu handsome!

Emm, what should i write in your b'day? 

Actually i don't really like your newest song. Or maybe i got distracted from other singer? Perhaps. Your genre, ballad is not a genre i can hear everyday, everytime only occasionally, once in a while. But, still like you.

Your face change a lots. Lets work out together *who i am btw?*. Haha. So sorry. I should watch my mouth. It's not like that I'm perfect. No. I'm nothing But, still like you.

Soon, you will going to army. Same job as Park Yoochun. Administation rite? Aigoo, actually i want to see you in cops uniform. Dance with EunSiHae. But, still like you.

Nan gidaryeo, Captain Cho

Call on your enlisment, you appear in alots of realty and variety show. That's good for your fans, me too. I really like your emerging in that kind of show. Cho Kyuhyun, noe neomu funny. I enjoy your sharp mount. Your joke. Your expression. All of you. Lets recall the moment when ChoKyu on a reality and variety show.

Weekly idol. I think the weekly idol's concept suit you. Besides Radio Star.Or in other words: indoor. No hard activity. A lots of talk of course.

With hyungs

With dongsaeng: Henry

Alone: Still funny

Running Man. I like Running Man, but the concept isn't suit with Kyuhyun. And getting worse because i had to see Kyuhyun with other guest. I want only Kyuhyun and Super Junior only. So annoying watched Kyuhyun had a lil slot of camera. I need Kyuhyun moreee! I dissapointed RM!

I need them more

He only appeared less 1 minutes! What a joke

How about Kyuhyun only be the guest?

Mamamia. I like this show! 

Youngja, Misun, Kyuhyun

Aigoo ya, uri prince

Emm..

With eomma

Mamamiaa..eomaneun, narang, uri *ngawur*

The new journey to the west. Kyuhyun has a couple right after he was joining the show: Ahn Hae Hyun. I'm not watching it yet, just the cut. Kyuhyun cut. Funny Kyuhyun cut, etc. This show kinda funny.

The cast

Press con

Got B for english test

Kyu-Kong

Radio Star. This show is Kyuhyun's fav. Of course. He likes to talk better than move. This suit him well. His outfits soo damned good!

 

What others show that Kyuhyun participated? 

Anyway, among that shows my super favorite show is Super Junior's show. I like when Kyuhyun with hyungs. I like they have each other. Please stay healty, oppas..and comeback funnier

All about super junior

Super Junior Dinner with Naver Starcast

A song for u

Being the witness of him who bullied his hyungs

Super Show

Please have each other. As always. Stand to each other and be Super Junior forever.

Happy Bday, Kyu! Saranghamnidaaa